Well, today went much more betterer…if I didn’t quite get my dream 128.5kg, I got a lot closer than I thought I would…  129.2kg!   And that’s probably only because I missed out on my (314kj) morning tea yesterday because I was at the hairdresser!  So I’ll most likely be back up again tomorrow 😦

Speaking of which (the 314kj morning tea, that is), while I can’t tell you exactly what my diet/weekly menu is (it’s one of those “don’t try this at home” things – it’s probably quite unhealthy for the man or woman on the street, but desperate times call for desperate measures and I have a lot of people hovering over me to make sure I don’t come to any harm)  So… I can tell you that I average about 3753kj/897cal per day.  I get a really nice breakfast (Uncle Toby’s Vita Brits with extra bran, half a sliced banana, and 200ml of skim milk), I get morning and afternoon tea, I get a nice lunch, soup for dinner, and a dessert of diet jelly and my choice of 314kj of certain fruits.  Yes it’s bland… yes, it’s boring… but it’s not forever, so I can put up with it for as long as it takes….

As well as show those really wonderful and well meaning – but occasionally terribly thick doctors – that I can bloody well do it on my own! 😛

More tomorrow… hopefully with more good news….  🙂

Well, I’m not really miserable… dejected, maybe… disgruntled? most certainly.  I neither went up nor down this morning – steady as she goes on 129.7kg.  I did buy some celery capsules though, and willy or nilly will start taking them tomorrow… I have my next Warfarin blood test on Thursday and it’ll be written on my form that I’m taking the celery and no doubt the good people at the Dorevitch Warfarin department will adjust my rat poison dosage accordingly.

I hope, anyway… but if I bleed to death at least you’ll know why.

Oh, went to the hairdresser today – I badly needed a cut and re-colour, and as usual, they did a sterling job.  It looks a lot more natural than the last re-colour I had done about six months (or more) ago elsewhere, so I do have something to be pleased about.  Now, if only I could go down to, say… 128.5kg, I’d be ecstatic – not gunna happen of course, but one can dream… 🙂

Most disappointed today… my weight went up to 129.5kg, 😦 the same as it was last Thursday…  😦 It’s probably just fluid retention, but I can’t take anything for it – not even celery – because I’m on Warfarin  😦 (and celery contains too much vitamin K, you see)

Sometimes I feel as though I’m banging my head against a brick wall 😦

Ah well, maybe tomorrow will be better …

Julian brought home a whole heap of big boxes that we’ve had in storage since we moved in here…  in 2007!!  We have no idea what’s in them, and yes, I know the old adage “Pack your old stuff up and store it for six months – if you haven’t missed it lying around during that time then you really don’t need it any more”  But the thing is, there are some fairly valuable antiques in there – somewhere – and a bit of jewellery that I’m rather fond of – and yes, I do miss it!  So… fun and games discovering lost treasures and a lot of lost junk over the next couple of days (if he doesn’t get too busy with [censored] Body Corporate work!

Back with more tomorrow, unless my weight goes up some more, in which case I’ll most likely be in the local mental hospital from banging my head on that brick wall I mentioned earlier…

Well, I’m still here – so far.  Nothing disappeared, and I went back down to 129.5kg this morning (*phew*).  I’m still trying to work out the best way of setting out my new style menu (I’m a bit like that with “setting things out in a way to make them look pretty” – and if pretty isn’t possible (let’s face it – that’s a hard thing to do with something as boring as a table!), then at least neat and well presented 😛 (and with pretty colours, of course! 😉 )

So what else to add?  Julian and I had our usual “Sunday in Telara” (Rift…), both of us going up a couple of levels… and we watched Dr. Who this evening… and now here I am, adding this – hopefully it’ll behave itself again tonight…

More later  🙂

Yeah, a bit fed up…. the problem I had the other night with everything disappearing except for the background colour of the Theme I was using.  It seems the only way I can get the blog back is to…. change Themes!  The whole blog, and all my posts apparently appear perfectly to everyone else except me.  Why me?!!  It’s not fair, I tell you!  The first Theme I used was Brother (or something), the second one was similar, called Kelly… This one is completely different and is called The Twenty Ten Theme… maybe I’ll have better luck with this one (but I doubt it!)  If it keeps on happening I shall have to leave WordPress and blog elsewhere, which will be a shame, as I like this set-up and besides, I just paid the $99.00 Upgrade fee!  However, if the worst comes to the worst, and I do move this blog, I shall leave a final message here telling anyone interested where I’ve moved to.

I’m also a bit down today because my weight went back up again to 129.9kg – what I was the day before yesterday… maybe tomorrow I’ll go back down again… very disappointing though – I don’t mind going up maybe a little, but to lose two whole days worth of weight loss?  😦

Oh well, we shall see what we see tomorrow.  I have to re-do my weekly menu plan, too, because now that I’ve become a bit more used to things, I’m thinking of switching things around a little, just for a bit of variety.  F’rinstance, I can have diet jelly any time and as much as I want… it’s kilojoules/calories free. I can have 1 small apple, or 1/2 a cup of grapes, or three prunes (etc., etc.) all of which have a specific, if somewhat approximate, kilojoule/calorie count, and therefore have to be added into the day’s allowable kilojoules/calories (around 3747 kilojoules/896 calories per day for me)

Well, here I am again, to report on my “progress”…  Weighed in this morning at 129.7 k!! 😀 I’ve broken the 130k barrier!! (having said that this evening, who wants to bet that I’ll be back to 130.something k’s tomorrow morning!?) …and I’m still not hungry – put that in your pipes and smoke it, everyone who tried to tell me that I couldn’t do it (lose weight consistently and safely) without bariatric surgery! 😛

And the dreaded exercise program… I’ve had a few exercises taken off the program as they hurt my knees too much, and a few more put on – but all easy – for me, anyway.  So with a little bit of prodding by Julian I may be more inclined to actually do them every day… well l l l , maybe every day or so (hope he’s not reading this over my shoulder!)  Anyway, more news as it comes to hand… (now I have to work towards breaking the 120k barrier!)

Well, here’s yet another attempt to start a blog.  Why is it that I can never seem to do anything with any blog wot I start?  Maybe I’m not as narcissistic as just about everyone seems to be these days – I mean, taking naked pictures of oneself and keeping them on Cloud?  That’s just begging, on bended knees, to be noticed and leaked to the world, and if that isn’t narcissistic, I don’t know what is.  Seriously though, I do have a narcissistic streak in me (doesn’t everyone?), but I was brought up “think of others before myself” (didn’t work!) – or maybe it’s just that I don’t really think I’d be of interest to anyone except maybe my immediate family..  Oh well, as I said, here goes again for another attempt.

The thing is, I have to lose a lot of weight in a very short time, so it might be of some small interest to others in the same boat to see how I’m going with it all.

Many doctors (many!) have told me that I should seriously consider bariatric surgery – a lap band, or perhaps even succumbing to having two thirds of my stomach removed, permanently!  In vain do I tell them “but I don’t eat very much”, and that “but I don’t have much of an appetite, even at the best of times.” And surely, even in the most extreme cases of obesity, shouldn’t surgery be a last resort, when all else has failed, and not the first?  What I don’t tell them (and perhaps I should have) is that if there’s food around that I like, I’ll eat it. Not because I’m hungry, but simply because it’s there.  So…. here I am determined to lose 30k or more by the end of the year.

I’m going the Optifast way – not the Intensive Phase (apparently that requires a fair bit of medical supervision), and not quite the Transition Phase either – on that I’d be replacing two meals a day with Optifast, which I’m not, really.  Not yet, anyway.  I started on August 18th (2014), and It’s a pretty boring menu with between 3454 kilojoules/826 calories per day, but I haven’t felt hungry yet… So far I’ve shed 3 kilos… it’s not as fast as I’d like it to be, but that’s without exercising at all – I’m riddled with arthritis and can’t walk more than a room or two at a time before I’m doubled over with pain, and I need a wheelchair when I go out anywhere.  I’m supposed to be starting on an exercise program, but I’m too lazy (guilt, guilt, guilt)  I’ll try and do better from now on, but it really hurts my joints…

More tomorrow when (a) I’ve weighed myself, and (b) after I get back from my exercise class…